Suicide IV – “The Ultimate Demise”

Standing on the edge,

I gazed the sky,

Cried shoddily in rain,

Finally jumped & tossed to die.

Touched earth with a bang,

The collision was implausible,

A sudden jerk to body,

Senses lost fervour & became indiscernible

Now the devastation is bleeding,

Enactment failing its recourse,

Cavernous pain cries aloof,

Time out for any remorse.

Eyes bleeding feebly,

Tears exterminating from soul,

It’s time to bury alive,

RIP to my body in shoal.

This incessant pain is unbearable,

Give thy soul relief,

Beseeching ultimate respite,

Hopping on departed belief.

Pain killers dying insanely,

Not even breath can hold its weight,

Mind is alive in pursuit of existence,

Body is exiled & soul devastate.

Oh God, I can’t budge my hand,

How do I end my pain for forever?

Even needle stopped sensing,

My pain has turned relentless and unbearable.

My legs are trampled like a can,

Every single breadth paining badly,

I can’t even move my eyes,

Cries have lost power, yet I’m screaming madly.

Oh god! This pain seems everlasting,

Can’t tolerate this continual squish,

Every second feels agonizing & dreadful,

Please grant me this ultimate wish.

I have tried hard to live,

But these humans are egocentric,

I tried purely from heart,

They constantly busted my belief being frenetic.

Even my love shredded her promise into pieces,

Left me aloof in pain,

My self-consciousness died there,

I whimpered, Oh lord! Why me again?

A final sorry to my Mom from my soul,

I have lost the battle of hope,

I love you more than me,

That’s why I fell in this grope

Arrogant heart is sluggishly beating,

I can listen to those sighs,

The tolerance has lost the battle

Oh Lord! I am begging my “Ultimate Demise”

Lovers' Cove May Link Up

Andy David initiated a brilliant poetry link up session called Lovers' Cove. He gave us his first line which can be read at http://apd-loverscove.blogspot.in/2012/05/lovers-cove-challenge-1-05262012.html. I continue his thought with...

The link is going like this.... and my line after Elen Lackner's Line is .....

My Line :  

Strangulated in emotions, Dissolved in wrath, subliming my wits to that impeccable grim.

http://apd-loverscove.blogspot.com 

Your Touch

A sense is choking other,

Crescent eyes are shining,

Divine merging with souls,

Your touch felt like bribing.

Lost in elation of fervour,

Anxieties crawling skies of desires,

Snow wed nature smells,

assorted power of fires.

I am lost in your heed,

When you touched my hand,

Angle danced profoundly,

My heaven merged with land.

I captured every second with exactitude,

Locked innate passion wisely,

  But sky gazed the sun of love,

My pact enacted untidily.

Still my hand tattooed your shadow

Visible even in dark,

Irrelevant is the nature,

Even snow generates the spark.

That’s the relevance of your touch,

Turned on insatiable lust,

Every second felt it in me,

Your supreme power of trust   

Galaxies moved heavens searching stars,

I swimmer in your sea,

Credential flows with time,

That’s the touch to see.

Frozen that moment of love,

In refrigerator of our epic relation,

Resurrection of your senses,

In the dearth of died elation.

The Last Hope

Equality brutalized insanely,

Humanity is at the edge of disparity,

Unsung battle at the verge,

As if decoying mist in heed of clarity,

Comatose failures died insane,

Synchronizing colossal tears in smile,

Still a hope revives from death
deeming a lame to be agile.

Humanely existence bleeds treachery

Dissecting emotion in name of parity,

I am weary of this combat
Thy soul, free me from self inveracity.

A master slash harmony,
Skirmishing against irrational style,

Lost in aiding disgrace,
Yet practicing it to gain the pride

Tantalizing death annoying life,

Misunderstood phoenix as craven,

Yet standing tall with pride,

As if renewed hell into heaven

Who will revive the phoenix,

The battle of battle is on,

Death has quenched life,

The only beam is also gone.  

Suicide - II - A Will confronting Death

Standing on the edge,

I gazed the sky,

A lightning strikes the rain,

Horrendous pain smile at the cry.

But the eye refused to close,

Steps defies to move ahead,

Deciphering life in death,

A mysterious power reviving the dead.

Chronology of death beseeching the existence,

Amassing numerous reasons,

Life stubbornly denying the diversion,

Dissolving dissimilar seasons.

A revival in pursuit of amazement,

Smiling at will of liveliest rain,

A warrior of will stand at the edge,

Surpassing this colossal pain.

Looking at the depth of death,

I stretched my knuckles,

“I am the blaze of Will,

You can never muddle me in shuffles”

"I will transcend the time,

Outshining in the heavens of optimism,

You can detain my soul momentary,

But can never sink it in pessimism "

"I will live till end with zeal,

This, I, at this point announce,

O Death! , I challenge you for my life,

Try firmly for your supreme denounce".

Suicide - 1

Standing on the edge,

I gazed the sky,

That’s it God from my side,

I can’t give more try.

A tear left the eye with pain,

surmounting unbearable beliefs,

It’s time to erase the barrier,

Lets jump to relentless reliefs’.

I can’t bear this racism,

Of body, heart and soul,

O god! This mental torture,

Should now end its role.

O lord! please say sorry to my mom,

From my side,

Our family securities will improve,

With this stride.

I love her a lot

& can’t see her weeping,

That’s why I am jumping off ,

When she is sleeping

I can’t bear her pain because of me,

What wrong she actually did,

This disability I got,

Collecting a ruinous skid

Why people can’t live on their own ,

Without interfering with others,

I was so brilliant before,

Then why they are gifting unwanted feathers.

Finally a good bye from a tortured soul,

Crying in pain and tears,

Oh god! Please cram this world with peace,

So that nobody choose to leave their dears.